The Battle is hard!

This beautiful handsome young man is my 15 year old son who has Autism and ADHD. Everyday is a struggle to make the right choices and do the right things. He tries so hard!   Yesterday he was a warrior! He fought a hard battle and he won! He beat temptation! He persevered!

See we homeschool him and this is the right choice for us. He learns best at his speed, and not at the speed of others.  But his everyday battle is with his obsession with electronic entertainment devices. And everyday, we do what is best and lock them in our bedroom while we are at work.  We do that so that he can focus on his schoolwork and not be distracted.  But yesterday...I forgot to lock the door!

The battle was a long hard fought 4 hours! He was so focused on making and doing the right thing that he was frozen and that is all he could do.   But he won!!!   He was finally able to start his schoolwork and overcome the temptation!!

I am so proud of him! So proud of the man he is becoming! So proud of the mature he is starting to show!

It’s hard! This life of Autism and ADHD! But we keep going!

Go buddy boy!!! Momma has your back!  I’m so proud of you!!  I’m your biggest cheerleader and your biggest fan!!  You got this!!


Can you hear what I hear?  Can you hear God saying this to you? Can you see God writing this kind of stuff about you? He does!! He is your biggest cheerleader! He is your biggest fan! He is proud of you even in the midst of the hardest battle that you will ever face! He loves you!
And sometimes, he has to lock up those things that will distract you from him and his purpose until it’s time for you to have them. And when the battle is fought and is won, you get the spoils!

Today, take time to run to God and sit at His feet. Take in all that He wants to tell you. Take in the love and encouragement and forgiveness for when you lost. He still loves you! He will always be  and is still there for you!!

Trusting my Daddy

When I was growing up, as a very little girl, I trusted my daddy. I trusted that he loved me, and that he would always protect me no matter what. I knew that was where safety was, and that I could run and fall into his arms and everything would be ok. I could fall asleep in his arms and rest.

Unfortunately, that ended when I became a teenager. The trust was broken, and turned to fear. He was no longer a place of safety. I became jaded. And therefore, my view of God was changed. As I grew into an adult, I didn’t know to truly trust that God loved me. I had been taught that if you don’t do exactly what he tells you to do, you are not loved, you are not wanted. I had to go through some cery very hard life experiences to learn , to really really know that God Loves Me!! He will move heaven and earth to get to me to rescue me! Psalms 18:3 - 17 is such a descriptive passage that shows his love for me and you.

In Matthew 18:12-14 is the parable of the lost sheep.  I cry every time I think of that story.  When Ian was little, he had this book that I wish I still had. It was called “The Lost and Found Lamb” by Tracy Harrgot. It was a flap book that you could flip up the rock or open the chicken coop and there was a dog with the shepherd who was helping to look for the lost sheep. It was so cute to watch Ian as I made voices for the dog and other animals while he was looking for Woolly the sheep. And at the end all of the animals threw a party for the sheep to welcome him home. I used to make all the noises of a party to entertain him. He thought it was great!  When the last page and the last flap was lifted, it showed Jesus as the shepherd and wooly as a child whom Jesus was holding and loving. It showed what the story was really about! To think that I, a bad rebellious sheep, who gets caught up in wanting what I want when I want it, and I wander off trying to find my own way, is so valuable to God. The Good Shepherd that he leaves the rest of the flock and searches in rocks and crannies and crags just to rescue me who has realized that I am lost and all alone and has been sitting and crying, bleating, for help.  He picks me up and puts me over his shoulders and carries me back to safety and nourishes my soul and cleans me up, and dresses my wounds and talks to me lovingly.

See didn’t just saw, oh well, I lost another one!  No! That is not how MY DADDY WORKS!  My Daddy loves me know matter what! He will protect me from the wolves. He will come when I cry out! He is the one I can run to for safety and fall into his arms and know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he is working everything out for my good!  I can trust he will untangle my messed up life and restore what I was supposed to have!

Today, I pray that as you and I struggle with life as it is now, that we realize and know that we always have a place of safety to run to. That you can rest in whatever chaos surrounds you knowing that the God of heaven and earth has it all under control and he is working on whatever it is that you have asked for in prayer! It due time, His time, things will come to pass and all will be revealed.

May God richly bless you today!