A fresh start

So yesterday we “took down Christmas “.   We took down the wreaths, the ornaments, the random decorations, the ribbon, the lights, and finally the tree.  I was ready, ready for the end of the hustle and bustle and busyness to end. I was ready for a fresh start.

But, I wasn’t ready for the feelings to go away. Feelings of happiness and joy and love.  The gift giving of gifts, spending time with family. That is what I wish would linger.

We got the house clean and everything and everybody ready to go back to school today and the house got quiet finally at 9 pm. I sat at my desk and planned out school for the next month and my planner stamped and prayer list filled out for the month and I reflected on the day.

I heard God say that the fresh start is what the tree and the lights are about. That love and happiness can go on..Jesus did the hard stuff on that tree, he died for me so I could have a fresh start, so his light could shine through me and point others to him.

I had just had to deal with my big boy having another Autism meltdown. Things had not gone like he was thinking they would, he was interrupted, he didn’t like how things felt. How do I manage to teach him that you can’t live on your feelings if they feel good or not. That’s what the devil tells you to do. Do it if it feels good!  And so many times I am just as guilty!  I don’t feel like cleaning! I don’t feel like...  and I don’t do it!  But I have to do things differently! I have to start doing them even when  I don’t like how it feels because Jesus died a horribly painful death just for me! He did things that didn’t feel good so I could have a fresh start!

So today, I got up earlier than normal and had a fresh start! I did what didn’t feel good..I got out of bed! I didn’t rush to get ready, there was no yelling hurry up there was no crying there was just patience and calm and hopefully a little bit of Jesus shining.

Fresh start!  Keep going everyday! A little more and more!